Goals in life or as you may call it a Bucket-list

These are in no specific order by the way.

1. I would love to talk to a train driver and get his persmission to ride in an open wagon all night with a friend with me. We would go at around 9pm in summer perhaps and ride ALL night, so we would get our blankets, pillows, treats and ourselves. I think that would be so fabulous and a good break from everything else. We would have good talks, lots of laughs, we would have time to tell our deepest secrets and stupidest moments and just have a good one on one moment. Maybe one day this will happen and I will bring my good friend along.
2. I want to spend Christmas in Alaska or in the North. I hear there is this hotel made of ice, so it's and Igloo and there is no electricity, no heat nothing but such a great experience that I would love to have. I talked to my dad about it and he is willing but not without mom so we are trying to convince her to come and try it out. Hopefully I will be able to in the future, one day.
3. I want to buy the old Mental home in Raymond and start an orphanage. I would travel the world and bring children from 3rd world country, homeless or even from here of course, and help them here. I would provide an education for them since I will be done in five years time and will be able to teach, so why not children with no family? I know it sounds crazy and unlogical, but once I figure out how and when and all the other questions you might be wondering, I think I will make it happen.
4. I want to become a designer. I have always loved desinging clothing and as a matter of fact I created my grad dress. So during my spare time or maybe one day full time, I want to make different kind of clothes. You've heard of Moddest is Hottest right? Well I would love to do something like that but with weird clothes, clothes that you look at and wonder what the purpose is, but once you put it on properly it looks sweet. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense but that is another unfinished idea.
5. I want to learn Polish, Spanish, German, Russian, couple African ones, some island ones as well and Italian.
6. I want to drive a plane. Now okay you might think I crossed the line, but hear me out. You know the one or two people ones that go super fast and are used in the war? Those ones. I would love to drive Xspeed and so fast that i can breathe and just twirl in the air. Why? I'm not sure, maybe for the adrenaline? Or maybe because it's different and out of my comfort zone, you see I am absolutely and definiltely scared, or shall we say terrified, of heights.
7. Fall in love. (the marry in the Temple) Okay you might say this one is simple but no, not for me. I secretly have trouble finding people I like more than a friend. If you know me you might say that's not true since I am always talking about boys, but not romantically if you really think about it. Yes I think they are cute, or attractive or drop dead GORGEOUS and yes I like some of their qualities, which is totally normal...but it is hard for me to really like someone because I am always doing something else, which is okay since I am young. But in the future, I am excited to fall in love, although scared.
8. Meet Céline Dion. Yes I love her and I am not ashamed. She has an AMAZING voice and you know what? I want her to teach me how to sing.
9. Be in Theraputic Recreation. I would rather do that then a teacher, and right now I really think I am going to switch programs... I am really nervous about what to do but I think this is the right thing to do. We'll see.
10. Buy a female pig and name her Walter, a kitty Cookie and a hideous dog Sushi.
11. Save a life.
12. Serve an LDS mission.
13. Pull an actual All Nighter and actually do something during those two days.

The list will continue as life moves forward.

Empty room

I need to find what I really love. I mean I know what's what but I can't say I know what I would love to do. Yes I want to be a teacher, that I know, but what kind of teacher?? I dont know... I thought I liked math but I dont love it...and I dont really want to be teaching math for the rest of my life. I love art and music but I wouldnt feel confortable teaching that to younger people... I dont know why but I wouldnt really want to do that because for me when I sing or play music or make art it's either for me and myself only to relieve stress or pain or to help people. My dream is to travel and to go into different societies and help them with their lands or teach them languages but he's the problem. I am broke and I dont think i would qualify to teach a language. I want to see the world. I want to learn of others cultures. I want to learn their languages and exchange something to them, give them something that means a lot to me... but i dont know quite yet what and how. But something I know that I've realised that I love is people. I love the old. I love the young. I love kids. I love meeting people and getting to know them inside and out. What I would love to do, betweeen you and me, is i would love to travel and write. I know my sentence structure is off and I know I'm not the best at writting but I love it.  Maybe one day I will.

A reminder

So I have this lovely friend that is biking from home(Cardson, AB) to Mexico... yes bloggers you heard right, isn't this great?! He has some sort of blog too and well he was talking about his family, describing each and everyone of them so gently. It reminded me that family is oh so very important! It gave me chills and almost made me cry when I read about his family, it was so beautiful. So I would like to take the time and talk about my family too and follow his example.
Daddy: Eric, or I call him Papou. He is a School teacher and is honestly such a funny man. He always finds the humor or makes a joke in everything, and I mean everything. He is a happy man full of life. He is still learning english and I love teaching him one word at time, he is seriously so cute :)The kids love him and the wife loves him, everyone loves this amazing priestood holder. He is my hero.
Mother: Isabelle. She is such a smart WOMAN! She knows every word on this planet in english and french and knows who she is! She is so strong in the church and has been my inspiration ever since I came out of her WOMB. All my friends love her. She is a strong woman and is continually helping me. She is usually always there for me and knows EVERYTHING about me. I love her, and I honestly don't know anyone who doesn't.
Brother: Yohan! Man I love this man! We did not get along when we were little, and actually almost always fought. It wasn't till later in life, as in 2christmas' ago, that I realised that it was because we are so much alike. I rememeber when I was little, everytime I succeeded in something, he had to be the first one and hoped he would be so proud of me! I remember coming home from kindergarden one day, running as fast as my little chubby legs could run and swung open the door yelling his name! I remember his face :) he was so happy that I could tie my own SHOES! But you all know how big brothers can get...when I was four years old I woke up rather late and felt so tired and weird but didn't think anything of it so I continued and walked towards the kitchen for some good breakfast as my brother whips around and says as loud as he could MYRIAM! WHAT IS THAT ON YOUR FACE! Yes I had chicken pox and all he could do was mock me. I truly had fun with him though. He always came up with the coolest games and made everything look so simple. He now has an amazing little man and I absolutely love him.
Sister:Naomi. She is graceful. She is love. She is crazy too though! haha she can turn anything into a party, let me you! She is so patient and caring. She's the one that stayed and sat with me while I read my first book. She used to help me read at night and sometimes accidently called her mom! haha man i still do sometimes lol. Oh I almost forgot...Shes Getting Married!! Yes she is :) and then fiancé is such a charm! He's a gem , he really is and I already love him! They are perfect together and it was actually love at first sight! Isn't that romantic :)
Twin: My Wax-off, My Foxy Socks, Roxanne, or my other half. We have spooned together for 9 months once! NON-STOP! Haha so she's my twin...and she is fabulous! She is different than all the other people I know, of course because we are all different, but she has this cute spirit. She does things at her own pace and own time, no matter what...not matter if we're late too! Sometimes it drives me nuts but she is continually teaching me patience! I absolutely love her. She has a passion for life, and will not be rushed.
So there it is focks. This is my family and I treasure them with all my heart. Family is one of the things you get to keep once you die and I will keep mine forever. I love them.

A little step at a time

At church today a song was sung by the congregation and for the first time it caught my attention. I have heard this song over and over again my whole life but it wasn't till today that I realised how amazing it truly is. It's called Be Thou Humble, Page 130 of the LDS Hymn book, here's how it goes...
Be thou humble in thy weekness, and the Lord thy God shall lead thee, Shall lead thee by the hand and give thee answer to thy prayers.  Be thou humble in thy pleading, and the Lord thy God shall bless thee, Shall bless thee with a sweet and calm assurance that he cares!
Be thou humble in thy calling, and the Lord thy God shall teach thee to serve his children gladly with a pure and gentle love. Be thou humble in thy in thy longing, and the Lord thy God shall take thee, shall take thee home at last to ever dwell with him above.
Isn't it amazingly uplifting? That's the key of happiness... Service. He's telling us to serve and everything will be alright. He's right there beside us whether we are able to see or not. He loves us and cares for us, He wants us to return to Him so He is willing to help us even if we don't want the help so here's the question...If He is willing to help us because He loves us and cares for us why would we not want to help our fellow man? Why would we not care for those that He truly loves? We need to be reminded that we need eachother, we need to help eachother. We need to built trust in eachother and overcome this nature of man. We need to rememember what the big picture is and obtain the gifts he is trying to give us. I love this gospel and am proud to be part of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I am so grateful for the Atonement and the chances He gives us to succeed in life. I am thankful for the wonderful examples and friends I have that support me and help me along the way.
Please, whoever is reading this, remember that He loves you and it is never to late to come back to Him.

Love

Wait a second...love? You know something. I love Romance,  I love Love. But today, lately, I'm so sad when I hear about it, maybe because perhaps I havent found mine, but I know I will. Great things take time. I love seeing a new couple finding eachother in eachothers eyes, willing to give away their hearts in return of the others and stepping in an adventure filled with passion and hardship. I love knowing that a man will give up Guys Night just to be with the girl he absolutely loves. I love seeing a girl say no to shopping just to spend a few hours playing video games with the man she loves. I love watching a family starting their lives together and creating more juniors with infinite love. I love watching an old couple walking in the park, holding hands and still blushing. I love knowing that love is infinite, that love produces miracles and that love is what holds people together. Thinking about this makes me happy, yes, but watching people lose the opportunity at hand or fake love makes my heart crumble. I know it shouldn't but I guess I'm senstive that way, I guess thats my weakness, but it is also my strength. When I say I'm romantic I dont mean ''give me chocolate and flowers everyday and talk to me all through the day saying how much you love me and youre not allowed to see anyone else but me'' because that would be to much. Yes a few cheesy lines would be great, but dont spoil it. Chocolate? Rarely and only on special occasions so that when you do give them it means a lot more than the other possible times. Flowers? I love origami just as much. Kisses? All the time. It doesnt have to be the same or always on the mouth. On the forehead, on the cheek, on the hand, on the shoulder...and so forth... Affection is the key. Fancy restaurants? Nah I dont need to, just make me a simple dinner with what we have and we can dress up and dance outside, money is unsessary in this case. I know I'm cheap, but for me its the thought that counts. What I love is the small simple things, the looks he'll give me, the smiles, the compliments, the dear dear hugs, cuddles and kisses. The simple help,the simple love.
Congratulations on my sister getting married to an Amazing man. They will be indeed be magnificant together, there will be hard times, but without them it wont make them strong. Good luck on both of them!

Lost?

Do you ever feel lost? You wake up and you look around and feel like something is missing? Or go to bed at night and feel so empty? Do you ever sit down a minute and try to figure out why you are so lost? All the sudden there are so many questions. What do I really want to do for the rest of my life? What do I see myself doing. Who do I really want to be with. What do I need to do before I die? Am I ready for the future? Will I be ready for my own little juniors one day? Or just simple ones, do I really want to eat this? Do I really want to do this... I dont have an answer do any of those. I dont have an answer... Do you ever feel like you've lost your chance sometimes? You're chance at proving yourself or others specific things? Life goes by so fast that it's left me blank, it's all changing with high speed. Here's another question... Are you sometimes so tired that you want to stop time and just lay there for a while and do nothing?? How about you're tired and you're so excited to go to bed so you get ready and jump in, say your prayers and close your eyes but all the sudden you don't want to sleep because it gives you back memories that you would prefer not think about so you try to find a different position or get out of bed. That shouldn't happen, but it's happening.
Random question: Have you realised that the people you get attached the most to and end up being such good friends are the ones that are leaving? Why does that happen. It's honestly the worst for me because I get attached.

Growing up perhaps

So here's the thing. Life goes by TO fast. Here you are, a toddler, playing and whinning with eachother. Everyday is a perfect day. If something bad happends, who cares you're back in the game in a minute or two! Everything is so magical and you think Mommy can do anything! And Daddy can fix anything. Your parents always have the answers to everything and you always stand so amazed! Crazy hey? Then you grow a little and go to school, you start to read and write and you know how to count. Man now you really think your grownup since you can go potty and tie your shoes aswell all by yourself! But then something odd happens. Early teenage years. Everything is changing so fast! Your attitude is getting a little rude, your hormones are doing funny things, your body and voice is changing as you try to stay focussed. All the sudden, in a flash you don't want anything to do with your parents. All the sudden they're to weird to be seen around them. Why? They love you! Dont they still have the answers? Wouldnt you think they do? Funny how fast you can change your opinion on someone you love...or loved? Then you are in high School and man theres a lot of hot boys (or girls) and now its all about competition. You need to be the best and you need to impress to get the hot shot. What the heck? Why ? Why cant they all just understant and learn to just be themselves. it would make EVERYTHING so much more easier for everyone. Then in grade 11 or 12 you start to come back to your parents because you've realised you've missed them. Every time someone brakes your heart or problems come you realise, well i hope you do, that you need your parents. so you talk to your mom or dad and grow closer to them. You then realise how much you love them and wonder what happened. It's rather simple. You're growing up. You try things on your own, its normal. but i ask one thing. Come back to your parents. You dont need to be like a child and become useless without them , but hey I dare you to be their friend! It's the best! i honestly love it, i laugh and cry the hardest with them.Just try :) They love you, no matter what.